OHMYGOODNESSME
I've been trying to produce some music for myself recently and this shit is HARRDD. They sure make it look easy, but when you have to format everything, edit everything and let alone perform everything it is totally hard! Wish I never signed up to doing it but I know it will be worthwhile.
LETS GO!
Youtube Channel Up Soon :)
Tuesday, 24 May 2011
Saturday, 21 May 2011
Logging back on Facebook
So I come back to Facebook and here is what I notice.
1) No one bothers to status at all.
2) My home page is crammed with stupid updates from Groups I joined a million years ago.
3) CONSTANT changes of profile pictures.
4) Events I cba to go to.
5) The messaging format has all changed.
6) I post a video, everyone told me the next day they loved how funny it was YET they DIDNT FUCKING LIKE IT cos nobody is bothered to 'like' things anymore.
7) Facebook is just full of haters like me who advertise their Twitter/Tumblr pages.
8) People posting on your wall saying 'there is a dislike button, Activate now!' NO! JUST NO AND fuck off bitch, THERE IS NO SUCH THING.
FFS many other things piss me off too.
Tuesday, 17 May 2011
Trying hard but nothing ever is good.
Just generally annoyed at the phrase 'hard work does not always lead to success, but success does not come without hard work'. I know it's true, but seriously fuck how true it is.
The reason is when I'm in my exam period, endlessly cramming in bits of information, I expect to be able to use them in the test. Not saying anything specific but Geography is a load of bollocks. All these useless numbers I revised, things that gave me hope so I thought would boost my marks considerably, didn't come up.
It was a similar situation with other mates. We were so confident, so sure that everything we had done, all that work, will come of use. Instead we came out of that exam room shocked, stunned and phased. All of us now relying on the good will of the examiner and praying boundaries stay low.
It really is the only thing we hope for now, because it puts us into the position of getting good grades. But it feels as if we are living on our knees, and that ain't surviving. Fuck the system, fuck life in general. It's true what they say 'If you do the right thing at the wrong time, it causes pain.'
Seriously disappointed at the moment, but fuck this, life has GOT to move on. Time to focus on a future and dwell less on the past.
The reason is when I'm in my exam period, endlessly cramming in bits of information, I expect to be able to use them in the test. Not saying anything specific but Geography is a load of bollocks. All these useless numbers I revised, things that gave me hope so I thought would boost my marks considerably, didn't come up.
It was a similar situation with other mates. We were so confident, so sure that everything we had done, all that work, will come of use. Instead we came out of that exam room shocked, stunned and phased. All of us now relying on the good will of the examiner and praying boundaries stay low.
It really is the only thing we hope for now, because it puts us into the position of getting good grades. But it feels as if we are living on our knees, and that ain't surviving. Fuck the system, fuck life in general. It's true what they say 'If you do the right thing at the wrong time, it causes pain.'
Seriously disappointed at the moment, but fuck this, life has GOT to move on. Time to focus on a future and dwell less on the past.
Sunday, 8 May 2011
I'm Really Happy
A few weeks ago I wrote a post about my pimple problem. At the time I felt it was necessary because this blog seemed like the only place where I could share my problems. Because lets be frank, if I told anyone else I would just have the same shitty response of "don't worry about it, you look fine. Just be yourself."
So at that point I decided to do something about it. Arming myself with a water bottle, I marched downstairs, with my target being to acquire water to drink and I planned to drink a lot of it. It was a habit I enforced each day, I would wake up, go downstairs and drink some water. During the day, I brought a chunky water bottle and drank it. In the evening, well, I drunk it whenever I could.
I'm not sure up till this day what it has done to me, maybe it hasn't changed one bit. But it's the fact that I drink water thinking my acne will go away which has probably made it fade a bit more. Like seriously, some mental shit right here. So I continued with this new found awesome feeling I had, hoping it would finally put me in the path of recovery. I changed everything I would normally do, I walked to school everyday, ate fruit and veg and meats only (apparently carbohydrates make acne worse). So the routines continued and I am proud to say my condition is finally getting better.
So, if you have acne learn from this. If you don't (feel blessed), there is still a lesson you can take away. Firstly is that when you find that drive of momentum, grasp it. Because it's the one thing that propels us to do something new. It's great because it's spontaneous. I really hate those who plan every inch of detail before setting out to do something, when they have jumped right into it and corrected their mistakes in the process. So whenever I think of anything now, I go forward and do it and it feels awesome.
So at that point I decided to do something about it. Arming myself with a water bottle, I marched downstairs, with my target being to acquire water to drink and I planned to drink a lot of it. It was a habit I enforced each day, I would wake up, go downstairs and drink some water. During the day, I brought a chunky water bottle and drank it. In the evening, well, I drunk it whenever I could.
I'm not sure up till this day what it has done to me, maybe it hasn't changed one bit. But it's the fact that I drink water thinking my acne will go away which has probably made it fade a bit more. Like seriously, some mental shit right here. So I continued with this new found awesome feeling I had, hoping it would finally put me in the path of recovery. I changed everything I would normally do, I walked to school everyday, ate fruit and veg and meats only (apparently carbohydrates make acne worse). So the routines continued and I am proud to say my condition is finally getting better.
So, if you have acne learn from this. If you don't (feel blessed), there is still a lesson you can take away. Firstly is that when you find that drive of momentum, grasp it. Because it's the one thing that propels us to do something new. It's great because it's spontaneous. I really hate those who plan every inch of detail before setting out to do something, when they have jumped right into it and corrected their mistakes in the process. So whenever I think of anything now, I go forward and do it and it feels awesome.
Saturday, 7 May 2011
Music CDs and me
Recently I purchased several CDs of my favourite music artist, Jay Chou.
It struck me how much I got attached them straight away. The music on those CDs were tracks I had listened to many many times before, yet I felt as if it was the first time I've heard them before.
Maybe I am a bit materialistic, but hey, it doesn't matter right? Because we live in a world saturated with consumerism, so everyone should have the right to be a little materialist. Anyway, deviating a bit here. So it occurred to me how bland and meaningless music downloads are. I have an iTunes library with a lot of tracks, probably around 7GB worth and quite enough (there are only THAT many songs one can listen to in a day) but very few of them I have purchased. Lets be honest, no one really wants to buy music, but it seems now I do feel like buying every album.
When playing the CDs, I realised I didn't skip any tracks right away, instead I listened contently. Firstly it's because I wanted to get my money's worth (haha xD) but also I felt the need. to. Contrast that to on iTunes, whenever I download the music I quickly scan through the track listings, skip the uninteresting ones in the introduction and generally listen to a few of them. Surely that's unfair. I know how to compose music and it is so difficult to make a music track, and yet so many people disregard that hard work just because they think it's not worth listening to.
So next time, if you really wanna enjoy the music, buy the CD
If you have money that is. Which of course, nobody does.
It struck me how much I got attached them straight away. The music on those CDs were tracks I had listened to many many times before, yet I felt as if it was the first time I've heard them before.
Maybe I am a bit materialistic, but hey, it doesn't matter right? Because we live in a world saturated with consumerism, so everyone should have the right to be a little materialist. Anyway, deviating a bit here. So it occurred to me how bland and meaningless music downloads are. I have an iTunes library with a lot of tracks, probably around 7GB worth and quite enough (there are only THAT many songs one can listen to in a day) but very few of them I have purchased. Lets be honest, no one really wants to buy music, but it seems now I do feel like buying every album.
When playing the CDs, I realised I didn't skip any tracks right away, instead I listened contently. Firstly it's because I wanted to get my money's worth (haha xD) but also I felt the need. to. Contrast that to on iTunes, whenever I download the music I quickly scan through the track listings, skip the uninteresting ones in the introduction and generally listen to a few of them. Surely that's unfair. I know how to compose music and it is so difficult to make a music track, and yet so many people disregard that hard work just because they think it's not worth listening to.
So next time, if you really wanna enjoy the music, buy the CD
If you have money that is. Which of course, nobody does.
Friday, 6 May 2011
My Beloved NHS
So the other day I was scheduled to visit the hospital at 4pm.
As a student, I thought it would be better to stay within school until the last minute so that I wouldn't miss any lesson content (concerned about my education you see) and so I left at around 3:10pm for the journey. Of course, this 50 minutes meant I allowed a lot of time for travel, because as we all know, shit happens. Sometimes there is a traffic jam, which we cannot avoid. Other times it's just a granny driving down a one lane road which holds everyone up, so naturally these are obstacles which will make us late. But anyway so I headed to the hospital a little early.
So anyway, I arrive at the counter at precisely 3:58pm, which is NOT late but mathematically early by 2 minutes and I give my details about my appointment.
This part really hurt me.
The receptionist tells me I have to be re-booked, because apparently my time had changed to 3:45pm and that I was late. No bitch, I was not late, you just fucking put me at a fucking earlier time. You can obviously tell I WAS NOT happy.
I really don't understand what is the point of booking appointments at SPECIFIC times of the day and then being turned away at no fault of your own. I had waited for this appointment for nearly 5 months, and yet when I could make it, I was told to basically fuck off and 'come again later'.
There are many things I should have done when they said I needed to rebook. I could have stood there, erupting with anger and demand that I be seen today. Instead, I chose the polite side of me, and kindly apologised for my lateness and retired quickly out of the scene. It would have all been good if it wasn't for one thing - the receptionist. That kind of bloody attitude of 'I don't give you shit' made me rage with anger inside as I walked out, if she had the decency of saying 'sorry about that' it would have at least made me feel alright.
So, I live in a country with a National Health Service (which I am proud of), but I am NOT proud how we have the latest technologies in healthcare service, yet people are unable to allocate the timing of appointments properly. It is a shame and I believe people these days are intelligent, but when it comes to a bit of common sense, well...
As a student, I thought it would be better to stay within school until the last minute so that I wouldn't miss any lesson content (concerned about my education you see) and so I left at around 3:10pm for the journey. Of course, this 50 minutes meant I allowed a lot of time for travel, because as we all know, shit happens. Sometimes there is a traffic jam, which we cannot avoid. Other times it's just a granny driving down a one lane road which holds everyone up, so naturally these are obstacles which will make us late. But anyway so I headed to the hospital a little early.
So anyway, I arrive at the counter at precisely 3:58pm, which is NOT late but mathematically early by 2 minutes and I give my details about my appointment.
This part really hurt me.
The receptionist tells me I have to be re-booked, because apparently my time had changed to 3:45pm and that I was late. No bitch, I was not late, you just fucking put me at a fucking earlier time. You can obviously tell I WAS NOT happy.
I really don't understand what is the point of booking appointments at SPECIFIC times of the day and then being turned away at no fault of your own. I had waited for this appointment for nearly 5 months, and yet when I could make it, I was told to basically fuck off and 'come again later'.
There are many things I should have done when they said I needed to rebook. I could have stood there, erupting with anger and demand that I be seen today. Instead, I chose the polite side of me, and kindly apologised for my lateness and retired quickly out of the scene. It would have all been good if it wasn't for one thing - the receptionist. That kind of bloody attitude of 'I don't give you shit' made me rage with anger inside as I walked out, if she had the decency of saying 'sorry about that' it would have at least made me feel alright.
So, I live in a country with a National Health Service (which I am proud of), but I am NOT proud how we have the latest technologies in healthcare service, yet people are unable to allocate the timing of appointments properly. It is a shame and I believe people these days are intelligent, but when it comes to a bit of common sense, well...
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